I don't know what happened from yesterday to today, but my outlook changed drastically. I woke up feeling so discouraged. I didn't want to get out of bed. I prayed for a long time and asked God to give us a sign. I spent most of the day just curled up in a blanket on the couch. I took a 90 minute nap. And...I Googled pregnancy symptoms in the meantime.
I'm not good with surprises. I like to know exactly how things are going to pan out. I went grocery shopping today and I stood by the pregnancy tests asking for the strength to not buy one. I didn't. I was kind of proud of myself. I know that a negative test wouldn't make me feel any worse because I would know that it was really early and didn't mean much. But, a positive test would definitely make me feel better. Oh well! Praying for strength and patience.
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