So, I'm doing a pretty good job of not obsessing today. I realized that I could basically enter anything into a Google search. Somewhere, at some point, some woman has had that symptom. It's driving me crazy, so I'm stepping away from the Google.
The truth is, I think this waiting is just a part of the lesson we are supposed to learn from these years of working toward having a baby. Aren't we going to need this patience we are building over the next 18 years as we raise a child into a productive member of society?
I am REALLY trying, but I'm definitely not perfect. I had another mini-breakdown last night. We did my evening shots and then I just started crying again. Ok, I wasn't just crying. It was a definite flood of emotion. It's funny how my attitude changes from hour-to-hour, even minute-to-minute. Somethimes (like right now), I'm completely fine and I feel like this next week will be a breeze. Other times (last night) I just wanted to know. I'm still praying for violent morning sickness, but it's just not happening.
We are going out tonight, so I think today is going to be a great day. We did look at a bigger vehicle today (just in case we have twins). As always, we are hopeful and excited. I'll check back soon, friends!
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