Quick Update

I had 21 follicles at my first ultrasound.  Everything is progressing so well!  Thankfully, Dr. Simckes said I could take some Tylenol PM, so I have actually been able to sleep for two nights straight.  I am adding a new injectable med tonight.  It is in powder form and has to be mixed with saline.  I'm a little nervous that I won't do it correctly, but I'm sure it will all be fine.

There is such a difference in my approach to ttc at this point in my life.  The first 9 years, I felt sorry for myself.  Every time I went to the doctor or injected myself with meds or had blood drawn, I felt sad and upset that I even had to do it in the first place. I would walk around with a heavy heart.  I would wonder why we had to go through this while others could get pregnant without really trying (and for free). I feel like my anger and sadness toward infertility somewhat sabotaged our chances back then. 

This time, I feel like it is truly a privilege to be able to do all of these things. I am energetic and excited about the entire process.  I never thought we would be able to do IVF and I am just trying to embrace every single minute of these few weeks.  I set my alarm clock this morning (Sunday) for my 6:15 injections.  5 or 6 years ago, I would have woken up angry and sullen.  I would have a "boo-hoo, woe is me" attitude as I fumble around with the needles before the sun came up.  Now I can jump out of bed and thank God for the opportunity to have this type of hope again. 

I am thankful, hopeful, and optimistic!  I am keeping positive as much as I possible can.