Beta results

Well, here us a little update since I haven't posted in a few days. On Wednesday, we had completely given up hope. Then, all of a sudden, I started to have some brown spotting. I called FP and they said it sounded like it might be implantation spotting. So, we allowed ourselves to get a little excited again. They said that brown blood is good and red blood is bad. We were quite hopeful.

Then, (sorry if TMI) it turned from brown to pink to red. I called FP again and my awesome nurse, Shawnie, said to calm down. It still sounded like implantation. However, she moved up my beta to today so that I could get the good news before the weekend and so I could calm down. I didn't tell my family and I was do excited that I might be able to surprise them a few days early with the results.

Well, Dr. Simckes called today, but the news wasn't good. My beta came back negative. He couldn't believe it. The embryos were excellent quality and everything looked so good. He said that all of the meds in my system may have made for a hostile environment. He encouraged us to try again soon.

I drove to my husband's work and texted him to come outside. I hated to have to tell him the bad news on what we thought might be the best day of our lives. I was actually doing alright until I saw him and knew I had to break his heart. We spent the rest of the afternoon calling friends and family who had prayed with us along the way.

Thank you to everyone who followed this journey. I will write more another time when this all sinks in. Prayers are still greatly appreciated.