My husband put me in contact with a friend of his who went through IVF last June. She is now expecting twins. It was so wonderful to chat with her via email because it is rare to find someone who truly knows exactly what I am feeling. She made a comment that really struck home with me. She said:
"As 'intense' a process as IVF is, with daily shots and meds and blood draws, etc., etc., one of the best parts about it is that every day, you are actively doing something to get closer to your dream, and I kind of looked forward to every little step in that I really felt like I was 'doing' something."
I completely agree with her. Yesterday was a very busy day at work and there was ice on the roads when my husband picked me up to go home. We had to drive out to the pharmacy that specializes in fertility medications. It is quite far from our house. Normally I would be upset and frustrated at the idea of working 11 hours, driving on ice-covered roads to get to a pharmacy, and then going home to cook dinner and prepare for the next day. However, I was not frustrated last night. I was thankful.
Have I told you that I have control issues? Well, I do. I want/need to be in control of situations (which simply does not work well with infertility). However, as my new acquaintance stated, IVF allows you to get a little of the control back. It allows you to be actively doing something on a daily basis. Every pill, every shot, every doctor's apointment, every ultrasound and every trip to the lab is a step closer to our dream. I know that it is all going to be worth it!
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